I spent nine years in a sick, dysfunctional marriage full of abuse and infidelity.

After having two more children by two different men, I found myself divorced, a prostitute, using drugs, giving my money to pimps, and had to give up custody of my three kids to my abusive ex-husband who was also on drugs. I was suicidal. I lost everything. I lost my kids, my house, my vehicle, the dog, and most of all I lost myself.

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I realized I needed Jesus when I met a man that would later become my husband.

He was the husband I thought I did not want, but God had his plan. After a few months of dating and being back in the strip club, we had an argument and in a drunken rage I screamed my famous line, “I don’t give a f***!” and Eric said, “But Jesus loves you.” That changed everything for me. Eric threw all of my “work clothes” in the dumpster and said I would never go back to the club. And the journey began.

That was twelve years ago. It has been a fantastically rough twelve years that has pushed me into Jesus’ arms. Without Jesus I would have repeated my past. Jesus changed me and ultimately changed my life. Because of Jesus I have my family, I have love, I have joy, I have hope, I have peace, and I have a dream, a dream of helping others and changing lives, sharing my faith and the good news of Jesus Christ.

With all that said, February I was back in the strip club for the third time, trying to help support my family. I knew it was not God’s will. I had been in contact with the Director of Destiny House trying to get involved helping girls, but God said I needed the help first before I could help anyone else.

Since being at the Destiny House I have identified and acknowledged behaviors that I developed due to my past. I am able to concentrate on me and my healing. I am receiving counseling and most important I am growing in Christ and gaining knowledge and wisdom of God’s Word. I have support and understanding from other women that have been through similar circumstances.

Although this is the most difficult thing I have done because I am away from my family, I know God brought me here for His reason and purpose. I expect to be prepared to be a better mom and a better wife and a better woman for society equipped with better life skills and job skills and fully prepared to fulfill God’s will for my life. Thank you, Jesus,